It's 5.30 in the morning. I just re-lived through a nightmare again. Know how is it like to pop panadols like candies and hide in a corner of your room and cry by yourself? Let me tell you.. it's hell.
And how does it feels like to be stabbed a thousand times? Think I've been through enough to describe that feeling to you.. so real.. so vivid..
I think I brought it upon myself. Being too curious on one hand, yet can't seem to be able to handle truth on the other.
I was still okay - my neighbours were having a pinic in my room at 3am. I was still laughing and all. In fact I was determined to finish up my readings for my american history tutorial tomorrow.
Life can be full of uncertainties..
It's really cold tonight. Wish that
he's here to hug me to sleep.
I haven't been sleeping well cos of the high stress level. Sometimes I wish that there's a button that I can click "DEAD" "ALIVE" "DEAD" "ALIVE"..
I watched two films today for two different history modules. And guessed what. I discovered that they are still using blackboard for one of the lecture threatre.. amazing right? See told you that I was still okay. Just very disturbed for the entire day cos can't seem to get
him on the phone. Then again, I should be very used to it already.
In fact I helped two of my neighbours with their assignments and I was quite happy with my language proficiency. I was feeling happy. It was meant to be a happy day.
But actually now I'm not quite okay. Woke buddy up but can't bear to tell him. Neighbours are already sleeping. Where's the whole world?
The whole world is sleeping...
