Oh it just started to rain.. suddenly.. abruptly.. heavily.. Did I ever mention that I hate to sleep alone on rainy nights? Just scared of the intangible. Okay it sounds pretty kid-ish but I'm those type who sleeps with lights on!
I was just trying to squeeze my brain juice, trying to analyse my essay question.. just emailed my lecturer regarding my doubts! Seemed pretty managable.. hope I can come up with something later.
I've really got to start studying for my test (science of music) this weekend because I haven't been attending lectures! Opps! Next semester I should just stop being adventurous and stick to things I'm good at! I always end up taking some irritating modules..
Dearie gave me a little present just now!
He remembered! It was quite some time ago.. I must start learning how to treasure and appreciate
him again. I guessed overtime there's a tendency to just take things for granted.
All the while I'm so persistent in seeing things from my own perspective (which is usually pretty inaccurate), should start looking at things from
his view. I think some time ago I stopped trying because of something that happened but after some pondering I feel that I should move on and start doing it again.
He is after all, the love of my life. I cannot go on torturing
him with my nonsense. Hurting comments are more damaging when they come from someone you love.
Sometimes things are just so straightforward and I just refused to take things as they are. Don't you feel that I'm just making my life difficult for myself? Don't need to be so hard on myself.
I'm still recovering from the physical injuries that I've got from falling when I was drunk! It sure hurts!
Hmm the rain just stopped.. all of a sudden.. unexpectedly.. good time to head to sleep..
niTE nitE
Deep in thoughts with a heavy heart..
