Actually I'm not feeling good again. Sudden outburst. The terrible feeling is making me tremble and I'm really terrified and overwhelmed. The same familiar feeling. The same one that made me eat those pills, the same one that made me hide inside the room, the same one that made me cry so hard. Yes, it's back again.
I'm scared.
Yes I just want to know the truth even if it hurts, because I do not want to subject myself to such agony anymore. It's killing me slowly. Bit by bit. I would classify this as the ultimate mental and emotional torment. Or maybe I brought it upon myself.
Yes it is getting difficult to keep a clear mind because I'm so overwhelmed with everything. On one hand there's a possibility that I've been manipulated, on the other, I'm just being too paranoid and sensitive. Which is the truth?
I really want to know..
even if it hurts.
even if it really hurts..
