I wanted to blog on the first day of 2004 about my new year aspirations and resolutions but in the end decided against it because I don't really keep them anyway. I should just live for the moment. Tomorrow holds many uncertainties and who knows, I might not live to see 2005. You can never be sure.
One of my dear friend is currently madly in love! For personal reasons, I would not enclose the person's identity. (READ: I might be boycotted if I ever do) So anyway, the point I wanted to bring up is about me being really envious. Envious of someone being madly in love. I think I forgot how it felt like.
It's not about romantic dinners or lovely gifts, but rather, the feeling deep inside. The intensity of the anticipation and longing for that special someone. The feeling of being deeply absorbed by simply his or her presence. Totally captivating and mesmerizing. Bewitched and enchanted.
It's hard to revive that kind of feeling when my relationship is burdened by so many issues.
Looking back, I'm amazed about how I managed to go through these four years at all.
How to mend a broken heart?
*ni ai wo dao se me cheng du le?
dao bu zhi suo chuo de di bu le.
- Listening to
Wo Bu Nan Guo by Sun Yan Zi.
*Bu yao zai shuo, ye xu ze shi zui hao de jie guo..
xian zai fen shuo, zong hao guo ni bu ai wo zai guo..
