I know I'm just too sensitive now. I just can't help but feel this way. I was just trying to resolve the misunderstanding between my neighbours but I kind of got slammed by one side. I am seriously not taking sides but I just happened to be the "middle-person" who can see both perspectives.
It pains me to see good friends not talking to each other just because of some petty incidents and misunderstandings so I was just trying my best to see if I can help in any way. Yes I know it's none of my business and I should have just washed my hands off everything, but I really can't bear to sit back and not do anything about it.
Why is it so hard? In the first place we all understand each other well, so we try not to do certain things in order to avoid conflict. Why is it so hard for everyone to understand that simple theory? Why does everyone have to think that they are absolutely correct and anyone else is wrong?
Does it mean that the person who's been keeping quiet about the entire issue would forever be wronged? Is it fair that everyone now thinks that the person is evil because the other party had been spreading her perspectives about what had happened?
Right now I really don't care who's right or wrong, because in any fights, there bound to be victors and losers. I just don't want to see things becoming so nasty. And we WERE all good friends.
I think everyone should just learn to be more skeptical about what they are hearing from others. I'm not saying that my sources are definitely correct, but all I want to do is to let each side see things from different perspectives - I can see why this person is reacting in a particular way and why the other person is angry. Trapping yourself in the same dimensions wouldn't do you any good.
We all have our flaws and there are bound to be times when we don't see eye to eye or not able to put up with each other, but the fact remains that we are friends and should learn to be tolerant.
As quoted from dear "One cannot always believe what she sees, let alone what she does not.."
Speaks volume isn't it?
But maybe in the end everyone just want to convince me that I'm wrong and they are right. Do you think that matters to me?
I am just trying to salvage our friendship here.
If in any case the person is more concerned about conveying how right he or she is, then it's just too bad. Maybe not worth me wasting so much time on trying to resolve. Not worth so many heartaches and headaches.
Now that I'm doing what I'm doing, I can feel the force of negativity coming towards me. I'm trying to tell myself that it doesn't matter if they want to think that I'm evil too, because in actual fact, I CAN BE EVIL and I do not want to deny that.
The worst kind of stress is when you can't even cry to make yourself feel better.
