Yes, I have only 8 days left and tons to cover - especially for this semester because I was very much distracted from my studies..
It's a nice Monday morning, quite quiet, except for some occasional soundings from the alarm clocks.. I turned in earlier than usual last night cos I was not feeling too well. Must be the weather!
Anyway I kept harbouring thoughts of getting back together like how we used to be but for some reason, certain unpleasant memories and incidents kept popping up. He'll never acknowledge me or commit fully to me. I think I'm somewhat disillusioned. All these while he made so many female friends and he always hide the fact that he's attached. He just don't want them to know. Or when like I intentionally made my presence known, he told them that I'm his ex.
Isn't that horrible? And I lived with that. Must be the stupid thing called love. Or whatever it is.
I can imagine all those happening again if we ever get back on track. It's going to be the same story all over again. How to trust him?
He said he did that because he didn't want the girls to keep questioning. Well, should he be accountable to me or them? Who is more important?
He said I always paint him like a real jerk.
Sigh if I really think he is, I wouldn't be with him for so long. Just that it's time for him to WAKE UP FROM HIS STUPID IDEALS AND PRINCIPLES that had caused much anguish on me.
Okay time to move on. Life is beautiful, shouldn't be this way at all.
I have many things to look forward to.
And the last thing I need is a boyfriend who tells others that I'm non existent or I'm his ex.
Girl, stop being stupid.
