Just came back from Zouk. Its been a very tiring but enjoyable party. At least we managed to hit out targetted earnings, though I had hoped for more. Anyway I am about to go off to bed already, now that it's almost 430am, but something that someone did over supper just irritated the hell out of me.
I think on one hand I might be too sensitive or snappy, but on the other, I really can't help but feel angry. I sort of asked one of my neighbours to collect the money to foot the bill, then she commented 'why did i suddenly become the money collector?" and then she gave me "the look". I mean okay, firstly, both of us haven't got the change and there's only that much change for one person, which means the other got to go pay up at the counter to get the money back.
Then I was just tired, so since she was seated nearer to the "outside", I asked her to go pay up. Then she gave me the treatment. I don't know if I'm just being over sensitive. I mean whenever we go out or what she never wants to be the money collector (probably she knows that the person would always lose a few cents or what because of discrepancies), she has never foot the bill etc. On the other side of the coin, I think she still owes me a couple of cab fares during our year 1 because she has never offered to pay me back.
I mean my allowance had been drastically reduced and I'm damn broke now, so even if she is in the same state, why is it my duty or responsibility to pay more for her? I really don't want to be taken advantage of. I don't mind paying for friends occasionally and my friends know that I do, but I hate to know that someone is exploiting me. I can't believe that I'm putting up with someone who's so stingy and exploitative.
In the end no one's gonna believe whatever that I've said about her being super calculative and exploitative (sorry i have to stick to a few adjustives so that I don't get too into venting my anger here).
I think we all have been living under the same roof for quite some time and we give some, we lose some. It's all part and parcel of life. You don't keep receiving and taking but not give at all. In the end, you can't bring all that money to the grave, can you?
In case you are interested, in the past I always kept quiet about paying for her (almost all the time) because I WAS quite a rich kid. I mean my allowance was DOUBLE of what I'm getting now, on top of that, I get extra for teaching tuition. Damn.
I have friends who EARNED their own allowances and they don't even live off others or try to act blur so that they don't need to pay up. That neighbour don't even EARN her allowance. With all the money she've managed to save from being a semi-parasite, she would splurge on a pair of Levi's jeans etc. WTH.
Sigh. I should stop complaining, I don't want to build up the animosity.
Most likely I'll wake up tomorrow and forget about everything.
Then the vicious cycle would return again.
Trust me.
