I have been wanting to blog. In fact I have so much to write. I wanted to write on issues about Abortion, about Bush vs Kerry (Not again?!), about school work, about how I feel and about the things that had been happening around me.
For the entire of this week (and of course weeks before this) I had so many deadlines to meet and test to study for that I wouldn't allow myself to indulge in anything else. This week I had oral test, listening comprehension test and written test for Malay language, on top of that, I have two presentations and one paper to write.
This semester I'm actually involved in more project work than usual because I'm trying to clear the university requirements for cross-faculty module. And I seriously do not want to get started about the trauma and the excruciating experience I had while trying to churn out the report for my marketing module. There was so unpleasant working with this bunch of people. Though fortunately I had this friend whom battled with me, we really had to slog for this project.
I really could not comprehend how irresponsibile people could get. And it's not an independent observation - most of my friends had been through all these shit about project work in one way or the other. These people could just disappear when you need them, submit shit stuff to you when you're the editor or simply tell you that they are too busy to do their share. Hello!!! We are damn busy too and why in the world do we have to put up with all these? We also have deadlines to meet and tests to revise for! And bear in mind that we ARE NOT awarded extra credits for all the extra work. I wish NUS would just stop making us go through project work because so many undergraduates here are assholes who try to take advantage of others.
Anyway the final grade for the entire project (presentation + report) is a A-/A, and now that it's all over, I just want to get over it. But guessed what! My proj mate kind of found out that my friend and I actually handed in an evaluation form (to her detriment) and she kind of scolded me. Can you believe it? Her contributions were so minimal and we could very well do without her totally. And she still has the cheek to tell me that I have to seek her bloody permission to edit her work. Fucked off lah. If I didn't edit her stuff we wouldn't even smell the A grade okay.
ARGH! Can you feel my agony?
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Okay actually my original intent to blog was to declare that exams are just 2 weeks away. And I haven't even touched my books at all, luckily I've been consistent with my revision for Malay Language, but I'm in trouble for the rest. This semester is actually quite crucial for me, because I'm already in the 3rd year, I am trying to decide if I should stay on for the 4th year. Interest is definitely not an issue becauseI love what I'm studying! (But that doesn't mean I like my classmates who probably spent ALL their time studying and the stupid NUS grading system. Of course I've already come to terms with the fact that grades are not accurate representation of my true ability - okay a bit in denial sometimes.) Just that I am on shaky ground and do not want to end up with a 3rd class.
And I have so many plans for 2005 - NOC and all. Even if NOC doesn't work out for me, I can always go and enrol in some other programs. My point is that I am ready to go out and explore the world! And feel small about myself and the little sg that I live in. There is really so much out there. The world has so much to offer. The last thing I want is to be stucked in SG doing what everyone else is doing.
So we'll see what life leads me to!
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Okay I'm on a blogging spree - I've got so much to say! I want to catch 2046 as soon as possible! I want to go shopping! I want to get a new addidas jacket and a new pair of jeans! I want to go sun-tanning at Sentosa!
Sigh. I have energy for everything else except for exams. After the hectic schedule and punishing workload, I barely have any energy left for the exams. I feel so drained and so exhausted. I don't know if I should be thankful that I don't have 5 papers due within two weeks like some of my friends, but I've never felt so drained.
Lets hope I can try to re-charge myself and prepare myself for the battleground!
Okay I'm going to bed now. Got to teach tuition early tomorrow morning.
Good night..
And yes.. I'll be blogging again soon!!!
