About 15 minutes ago, I just realised that I had forgotten all about attending a meeting back at hall at 11pm. I know its my fault, because I didn't really check or even update my diary these days. Actually I don't really bother, for some reasons.
I realised that the zest in me for hall activities is fast diminishing. To the extent that I feel that I might have, in one point or another, neglected my duties. Of course I don't feel good about it, but I am seriously lacking the drive and the conviction.
I dread going for meetings because sometimes not much is done, we could have conveyed those messages over email or sms.
And guess what! I'm not even going for the dance production this year because of tuition and it doesn't really bother me at all.
And of course I think my temper is getting a bit out of hand these days. Need to tame myself.
Right now I am feeling so terrible about forgetting the meeting. Looks like I'll end up going back all the way. That means missing The Apprentice and Cold Case. After the dec holidays, I hate having to sacrifice shows for meetings. That list include CSI, The Practice and Without a Trace on Tuesday nights. I think I just grew tired of sacrificing so much time and I'm really very protective of my own private time and space. I believe that I've burnt out completely! There is a big big world out there waiting for me and I do not want having to sacrifice my free time, my rest days just to go for carwashes or other meetings.
Sigh. So right now, to make up for my own mistake, I am heading back. I don't want to make it difficult for my friends too. ARGH!!!!!!!!!
I am so angry with myself!
