Yes, I'm graduating.. and my convocation is on the 14th July, next thursday! (Pretending to be excited when I'm not and not to mention the thousand and one things to sort out before I can actually graduate) I desperately need an additional ticket for the ceremony cos my parents are so not talking to each other but I haven't done anything about that too.
In other news, I've been busy catching up with friends, different groups of friend and would be looking forward to doing more of that in the coming week. And well, basically doing things that are so not job-hunting related. HAHA!
Actually I still feel kind of disoriented, the funny feeling I never could get rid of despite being home for almost 3 weeks? Perhaps its to do with the current flux - about the premature graduation, and the reality slapped me hard on the face.. I know what type of jobs I want, which direction I wanna venture in. Just that I have no idea HOW! I mean in recent years I've been really jinxed so I'm not sure that I'll be able to have a smooth-sailing job-hunting again. Too much adversity will just push me further into my nutshell. When is it my turn?
I've also been doing a bit of packing (unpacking) here and there, getting rid of all the clutters at home. Metaphorically, I'm almost trying to clear up the mess at home. Both on the emotional and physical level. And its been really frustrating trying to talk to my parents these days. I've come to a point where I can't be bothered to hear what they've got to say about each other. And i seriously think my mum is going crazy. She would cook instant noodles to offer the gods and when I told her that 1) I thought the gods are vegetarians 2) the food is attracting birds to our house (its placed near the window, between the kitchen sink and the stove - how appropriate in the first place) and she told me off and said that I'll fall ill within a few days for being rude to the Gods.
Okay don't get me started on that man. I just don't understand why my mum can go out to work as a cleaner when my house is in a literal mess. And in case you are wondering, my dad earns almost 16 times more than my mum. I have no qualms about her working cos I know she's very bored at home but 1) she chose such a far location (in town) and long hours (8 to 5pm) and 2) there's no one to take care of my little sister. Which is HOW ironic! After spoiling and pampering her for the first 12 years of her life, my mother SUDDENLY decided that its best for my sis to learn to be independent. Yeah right. During her most vulnerable teenage years. How appropriate. My mum doesn't see that by neglecting her primary roles at home, she's just giving my dad more reasons to give up on the marriage. Its so simple, why can't she see it? And no point talking to her about it. She'll stressed on the line that my dad said in a spur of anger "You are not contributing actively to the family" - what he meant was that she was not managing the household well, not that she's not earning income. ARGH.
Okay I should stop. Its going to get to me!
And I have to "face the music" later on or tomorrow when I meet my boss cos I took leave from tuition to go for my trip.
Hiyah.
