Unwell in so many sense. The persistent cough is killing me, consuming me bit by bit.. and I'm not recovering well!
Okay I just fought with dear over the phone AGAIN. Why does he always flare up when I ask him about his plans? Yes I know today he's having a headache so its really a bad time, but why is every time a bad time? I mean surely if I'm going to be part of the future, I deserve a say too right? And surely after standing by him for six whole years of ups and downs, I deserve to know what is going on and decides what we can do about it right? Surely having plans means he is willing to commit himself to wanting to solve his problems so that we can have a future together right? So what's wrong with me wanting him to have plans and what's wrong with me wanting to know the plans?
I guessed everything just adds to my frustrations..
Friends.. I know you all are there.. sometimes I know not what to say. Maybe I just needed a hug.. That night I smsed one of my friends and my buddy about my sister.. the former dismissed it and changed topic.. the latter didn't reply after two messages.. despite me waking up again at 4am to cry again because it was haunting me so much and I smsed them again.. both of them didn't even sms me in the next morning / afternoon / night to check on me.. It doesn't take a lot for me to feel their presence. Just disappointed with their indifference, hence the comments..
By the way, what's wrong with my comment thing man..
All these driving me nuts..
