My godma got admitted into ICU last night. I can only visit her this evening after my tuition class. Brought back unpleasant memories about my uncle song.. so many things I wanted to tell him.. now, so many things I've been wanting to tell her..
How to tell her that mummy is a good mother and that all that daddy has been telling her is BULLSHIT?
How to tell her that I really don't think she should have been so judgemental towards my mother?
How to tell her that I wanted to ask her to go for my graduation ceremony but it was hard for me to cope with my own graduation and things at home? And that daddy refused to be in the same picture as mummy?
How to tell her that I've been wanting to visit her but couldn't bring myself to because I'm worried that whatever that I've been wanting to tell her would upset her?
How to tell her I'm too emotional to talk to her?
Today I woke up.. and realised that my world is grey...
