D for demoralizing.
The first comments by most of my relatives upon hearing the fact that I had went against the norm (i.e. jumped into a job) and set up a little biz:
"You are bound to fail! Quit now and go become a teacher!"
"So how much are you earning now? 8K? 10K? How much do you give to your dad? If you're not earning that kind of salary for this please quit now! This type of business are not for Uni-grads!"
"Why don't you want to look for something stable?
And my mum actually told my relatives that I am doing this cos I can't find a job. I haven't had the chance to confront her about it but I had to show my agitation by correcting her in front of everyone TWICE.
And perhaps my dad might have complained to his friends about my lack of contribution to the household hence the sacarstic remarks. I don't know man.
I mean that is not the life I want to pursue. I have friends who want to earn enough to own as many LVs or Coach bags or want to earn to buy a ferrari, or maybe to afford a car or condo. But that's so not me. If I have the money, I would love to travel. There's so much I can learn, so much I can experience.
Right now I'm doing this because I like it, because its something that I've always wanted to try it out. I mean yes of course I hate the part when I have to carry heavy stuff and chip my nails but I really learned a lot of stuff. Not only about how biz work but mostly about myself. Isn't that the most important? I don't want to just jump into a job and then I'm lose myself in it. Because when I was in the "race" I was always upset and every little failure is greatly magnified as a personal flaw, so now I just wanna "take it slow" - learn to appreciate myself, my life. Not chase after the money, the car, the house..
What if there is no tomorrow? Would you bring your regrets to the deathbed because you've always waited for tomorrow to do something you've always wanted?
Just because I chose to do it now, just because I'm going against conformity, just because I am still not drawing that 8K income - does that make my life less significant, less meaningful?
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But ya, thanks for friends and loved one who had been supportive. And yes, I do have a plan and if this doesn't work out, then its something else then. Its not the end of the world! My life doesn't depend on what I do for a living. Its what I make out of it.
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