I think that's like happening to me very frequently nowadays.
Anyway I've been trying to fix my laptop, hence the absence. I'm so going to be all selfish and have it all my myself again. I can't afford to let anyone abuse it again. And just this morning I was in disbelief because I could actually check my email (which i haven't done for nearly a month!) from the comfort of my room.
Yesterday I lost my cool during my futile attempt to fix it, then to my utter horror, this stupid flying cockroach decided to invade my air space! My brave daddy, being ever sensitive to our screams (this is not the first surprise attack by that brown disgusting creature), dashed out of his room and launched a missile attack on it! ARGH GROSS!
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So yup right now I'm feeling so horrible. Just last week I lend a help to a friend's bf to help surprise her. I gave my suggestions and he took it up. In the end there's a twist of fate - my good intentions were questioned
maybe after she flared up then he immediately pointed his fingers at me. So yup, I became a convenient scapegoat. Remind me NEVER EVER EVER try to be helpful again. Because when others get credit for their effort, I'll get blamed for being kaypoh. Suddenly it all became my fault - I didn't force a gun on him to make him agree to it, i merely suggested and he, as the bf should have known better, yes that's true because if he doesn't, there should be no excuse as it speaks volume about how well he knows her! Ok nvm that's not my problem at all. I shouldn't have cared at all.
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Its been really draining having to wake up for something everyday. I think very few pple can understand that type of agony. And I dun mean waking up for breakfast. I mean waking up to responsibilities. Endless responsibilities. Don't you get tired of being yourself?
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Last week when I was at the tentage, this fake tai-tai approached me about one of the tops I was selling and she spoke to me in mandarin (and later in english to her son because she thought that I was illiterate or something). Since there wasn't any changing room, the only way she could try was to slip it on and after she did, she went on and on (in chinese) about how lousy the material is, how terrible the worksmanship etc etc.. then proceeded to criticize about the high prices. All this time I stood there patiently and listened to her complaints..In the end she didn't buy it! After that I just felt so demoralised. I know I shouldn't let these kind of things get to me.. but I know that if my dad ever witnesses such moments, his heart would definitely ache.. because he didn't send his darling to uni to end up serving customers like that.
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A corn emerged at the sole of my right feet! (thanks to the combination of the scorching weather and cover shoes) I had no idea how to remove it.. so through asking around, i managed to get info and went ahead to buy the corn plaster. After using 3 out of 4, i searched the box and realised that i didn't even make sure of the medicated plaster - what i had been using were the small pads to cover over so that i can walk properly! How silly! (and up till now I'm still trying to figure out which is the medicated side! It wasn't indicated at all! but anyhow i think it should be recovering soon! and I look forward to the satisfaction of witnessing the death of the dead skin!
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Had some moolah related arguments with dear (again!). Its such a horrible horrible feeling (yes so horrible that I can't think of words to describe it)
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Stayed over at Ritz suite last sat night cos it was p.ser's birthday! Its been a while since the last gathering of the princesses (excluding the NITE club pple) so yup it was great! I love the room! Super luxurious and comfy! The room is HUGE! Enough of the 6 of us without feeling squeezy (but the bed can only take four). Will pose pictures soon!
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p.s: dear finally helped me send my camera to fix! can't wait to get behind the lens again! its been a long wait!
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I missed gym. I missed shouting out loud to vent all my stress and frustrations. I shall go for aerobics on monday since the push cart and the tentage would be over by then!
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Its been a year since my graduation! I am no longer a fresh grad! I'm stale!
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Happy birthday to Daddy, Ah Tan, Chong, Rachel Huang, JL, Liyana, Aunt Joanne, Lok! Birthdays are the best times!
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The whole time that I couldn't log on was just unbearable. I had so many words in my head but nowhere to write it down. I have so much to say, no one to tell. Sometimes its just random thoughts..
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My eye lashes are finally showing signs of growth.. (did i mention that i accidentally pluck out bulk of it from my left eye while trying to curl it with a curler? my hand just jerked unexpectedly!) They are already terribly short! Thank god for mascara!
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I missed buddy!
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Ok I dun feel so terrible anymore. after all, there are so many things that are out of my control and if pple wants to push the blame to me, there's nothing much i can do. I've already done what i can.
good night.